Friday, April 28, 2006

i still love [U] best!


i still loves st nix the best! i love sngs sports day!
yellow house roxs!


28 april [back in st nix]
i was in yellow house in st nix! we rox! hahas :)
29 april [Ajc sports day]
i am in puma (green) house in AJC. it's not bad. we clinched second :)


but the atmosphere at both locations are totally different! in aj... it's like so "not high"....
the cheers are not nice, not creative not cute...so normal....
st nix ones are so cute lah... every year is different, creative and nice. adapted from those pop songs and stuff! OMG. i juz love all of them.
the runners are so slow...
even our pdg team (consist of sharon, yvonne, wan yi and me - not from track or sports cca) got into finals lor (the 5th timing i think)... OMG! if i' in st nix... maybe bottom 5 also wont reach lor... ( can u see the difference in standard? ) Oh well...
st nix cheerleading are the best man!
comeon lah, i think anyone that have seen st nix cheerleading would think aj ones is like "dotz...." lor.... completely pale in contrast. ur should seriously go and see lor.... the standard between st nix cheerleading and aj cheerleading. aj= pri school standard, st nix= university standard.


not that i dun like AJ or anti AJ lah. but, please, if u dun believe what i say, go and see for yourself lah... or ask anyone who have seen both, that are not from either st nix or aj.


stress level = 52 ( severely risk of being burnout by stress)
i'm stressed.
abt studies
abt health...
(i scare my eyes got prob.... it feels rather uncomfortable these days... think i should go for eye check up soon)
iloveyou||22:32

Thursday, April 20, 2006

rainy days....


i love rainy days.
it makes me comfortable.
i like the coolness in it.
i like the silence after the rain.
it makes me feel calm.


but rainy days also makes me feel kinda "low"
i dunno why.
emptiness. that;s what i feel in my life.
all of a sudden.
i dunno why.


i'm sick of the lifestyle i have sometimes
i dislike the routine lifestyle.
yet i hate disorder.


i have no direction in life now...


i used to be independent
i used to be decisive and firm
i use to be loud and agressive
i use to be full of confidence.
i used to be...
when i was younger...


but somehow, i feel my energy is draining away as i grow older.
why?
is being mature means
to take more things into consideration
and not make fast decision?
is being mature means
being demure and soft?
am i matured?


why am i not the person i used to be before?
since when have i become so paranoid and percieve life in such a negative view?


why?
i try so had to be the person i want to be
in the end forgetting how to be the person i used to be
whom i really am.


i'm lost.
i try so hard to please everyone around me
i smile at them, joke with them, laugh with them
but behind these smiles and laughters,
what is left is juz emptyness.
behind that radiant face
what is there is actually a blank. darkness.


i'm not on path in anything.
i'm lack behind for most of the things i do
studies cca and everything...


i start to dislike the things i do
these are the things i enjoyed doing previously
yet now, they are juz like burdens of my life
tianying.... ... haiz... i'm sick of it.
thinking of having my weekend spent at sph makes me feel sick.
i dun like it at all.


i'm waiting for aug to come.
then i can wave good bye to all of these things that have hurt me
so much
so much
i cant wait to cast it away.


i've not done a good job
but i have no intention of doing it anymore.
i'm tired of it.
utterly disappointed with all of it... and
with me myself i.


what is happyness?
is it juz the facade of agony?
iloveyou||19:34

Friday, April 14, 2006

it's good friday...
[joyce loves holidays!]


woohoo...
mugger club meeting yesterday was fun!
hahas. finished my chem bonding tutorial 1. ok lah... not very productive. but still manage to get some work done...
mugger club seriously need some discipline alr... if not mugger club will become slacker club already!


dean said i'm an extreme mugger?!!!! AM I?!!!!! OMG!!!! do i look like mugger??? oh no!!!! i am not k... i dun mug alot, i'm juz doing homework... BOO!


dean! you deframed me! "U BETTER WATCH OUT!"
lolx....
i got ur pic too... +winks+


boo. anw... i've post in on image station. (click the link http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2107397869)
anw... beside the new mugger club pic... i've uploaded a few more pic to the creamble tea album too! do visit it when u are free :)


OH YA>>> DEAN"S msn space got lotsa photos too! do go! hahas
here's the link:
http://spaces.msn.com/deanchee/PersonalSpace.aspx


crazy dean.... gotcha





iloveyou||12:29

Saturday, April 08, 2006

too long never update already.... suddenly feel like updating... but too much to update...
and i dont know how to sum up the events that had happened.


i juz wanna say, it's my bdae today! hahas. love my cake from my mama love my cake from my dear class 2506! love it love it love them! hahas.
heh... let's see what will interesting events will i experience today! hahas. i wanna be happy be crazy be loved!!!! (greedy pig!)


and after a busy and chaotic week of crazy bubble tea sales (aka creamble tea).... finally it ended magically one friday..... yup yup... finally ended... apart of me feel so relief, while another part of me feel a tinge of sadness... it all ended so fast... i think i'm missing the time we all gone mad and crazy taking the orders .... hmm..we made PROFITS of over double hundred! hahas... anw... S2506! i juz love all of u!


[thank you siang ning and suren for planning the bdae surprise for marc and me! i realli love it! thank you so much! lurve ya] :)


i've uploaded the photos already. you can go and see! click here : http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2107609262



iloveyou||10:31