Wednesday, March 31, 2004

juz finish chinese test. so damn... haiz... got more than 1000 ciyu to remember!! then the test only got so little word come out. haiz... wad a waste of time. the first question only then i dunno how to do already. haiz. chim lah. but overall still ok. hee. tmr got lit presentation. then friday got emaths test. haiz... there;s always a lot of work to do... it seems endless... haiz...
juz received a call from yuyue. she asked me if i can go to ha er bin during june with the school. can tell she's very enthu abt it, coz she lives there mah. hee. then she said if i can go i can stay in her house and go to school and study with her juniors. hahas. sounds really fun. but dun think i can afford it, muz be damn expensive lor, and i'm not rich. i dun wan to ask mama, coz recently spent a lot of $$ already. haiz... some more going oversea this june with the txy thinggy also, then also spend money. haiz... really wanna go... but how to? haiz... sad.
recently like always got mood swing. dunno why also. haiz... a bit mad mad. then suddenly become so over-sensitive, then also suddenly so "heck-care type"... can't stand myself. wat's wrong? haiz.
alot of prob lah. maybe we really going back to china soon. not we, but my parents and grandma. coz they wanna start business in china then some more in china got uncle and aunty to look after my grandma fer my mum. then she'll not suffer fatigue. coz she work so hard and have a very hard time taking care of grandma. then i'll be left alone here, with only my "bro" who is like in army and always not around and now that uncle in sg, then of coz he always go there to see him lor.

if only u are here. i nv see u b4, dun even know how u look like, how u sound like. u are gone juz like this... i know u are gone, even though i was still young then. i knew it. u nv come back. i nv cry when u leave, u leave in silence, or is it juz that no one heard ur cries. i need u, i always lie to myself that u are still around and u are 'real'. it's all her fault, all his fault. they lost u, they made me loose u... maybe u dun even know my exisitance, do u? she told me u may not be gone yet. u may still be around. if u are around, please bless me with happiness, chase all those unwanted away...in my heart there's always a place fer u. u muz rembr, u muz know...50 or 60 yrs later, we may juz be together again...

iloveyou||14:43

Sunday, March 28, 2004

today went to SPH to do the huixun... went at 11am then do until 12am then finish lor... haiz... can camp at SPH overnight liao. hahas. at first was quite slack. didn't do much also. was like the seniors were doing most of the thing, then we only help in minor roles. but later we got more things to do. brought my sec 1 and sec 2 ci yu to study, but end up not studying... no mood at first but now no time. think this issue really nice lor. tian ying rawks.
then they announce the leader fer hui xun (june) then it's me lor.... wad the... i'm only a newbie, but i know the seniors will be always there to help. qian qian is incharge fer the (article) and i have to write a article fer her to publish in the zao bao next next wk. haiz... then cai xun is our vice secretary and the most important figure and most talented and impressie figure of the 19th batch of TXY------ SHI SU-is our zi geng de leader! yeah. got her, everything will be ok. hee
-xiu hui (the "da jia hao" sister) dun be so stress liao wor... we finally finish our hui xun!! and smile!!
-si han (no-no ge) hahas. thanks fer including us in the production. hee. we really learn a lot
-xin yao (my SN senior!!) very nice. got the SN spirit still, even though u are already in JC now.hahas. very active and lively. thanks fer helping us with our zi gen di and giving us comments. hee. u very CUTE!!!!
-cai xun (pink glasses hip gal), cheer up kaes. no matter what happen, we'll always be by ur side, feel free to share with us ur prob. hee. btw, thanks fer lending me the (ahem, u know wad)hahas. i'll return u one. hee... thanks ar, although it seems to be over size, hahas.
-qian qian (the lust fer mirror gal) thanks fer always being so spontaneous and supportive. actually both us us know alot of gossips. hahas. the secret btw the two of us only. hee. without u, dun think tian ying can be so wonderful. very lively and nice. u realise that u tok very fast? hmm.... then willing to stay up so late despite ur mum's calling... rembr "TIAN YING IS THE BEST!!!"
-du qian, thanks fer being so lively and ya, supportive. a real team player. our regular food supplier of sweets and jelly. thanks!!
-li sheng (comp pro TCH guy), our website designer,can write a html template in 10 mins and do a forum w/o aid of anything. wondering how he rembr all those codes for the html. memory super powerful ar? hahas. muz thank him fer giving me the TCHS badge!! yeah, the 48th badge in my collection. hahas. get well soon (fall down while divering the floppy disc for printing but still proudly claim that fall down coz his leg long) +shake heads+
-yu cheng (aka "overage" new eagle) hahas. sad that u have to leave early. then nv share our joy of finishing the hui xun!! how's ur competition? hope u win!! yeah~~
love u guys man (all those who came down to help today!!) yeah~~~ hope our this issue will be awarded at the end of the yr!!! we RAWKS the core man!! ahhahas. hee :)
tian ying is the best!!! woah~!!! we are the best!!!
iloveyou||01:48

Wednesday, March 24, 2004

tml going to nan hua to do an interview with the debate pple there... wadever lors. guan fang already said that got pple interviewed liao. but... haiz... cynthia's going, i going, might as well rite lor. dunno they'll accept not... but... who knows wad'll happen. too much things happened too soon these days. there's so muz "unpreditable" happening...
-got into the journalist thinggy, then ying guan juz dun like our grp, said 3 of my grp mates are bimbos... (dunno them lar, not my business)
-that person pissed me off (or i pissed him... heck care), dunno why also.
-fail my a-maths (log) by 2 marks!
-forgot to bring my file today. then so much hw and stuff inside.
-almost late fer school today (rush like hell)
-drop my new waterbottle into the drain
-now got headache

wad the hell lor... so many unlucky things happen to me in less than 1 wk. caught me so unaware. haiz.. sad. +sob+ wad to do. totally out of control. this is not i wanted wad. but dunno also lah. las week so much good things happen, so now is the pay back time is it? why like this... feel not prepared fer term 2. nv really study in the holidays....
today tok to qianx, find out she's quite nice to tok to. hmm.. sort of similar to me in thinking. hee.. knew some info of other pple from her. ya... quite true lah... find that it's quite true...
find that wad we have in common is that both of us are sort of "think too much" and "worry fer nothing" pple. hahas... nvm... will get to know her slowly and better. hee...
sad sad sad sad sad sad.... wadever... i dunno why also. why? who can tell me why?


iloveyou||16:39

Monday, March 22, 2004

got this from hubby.... rather sweet...

A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said..no. She asked him if he would want to be with her forever..and he said no. She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry? and once again he replied with a no. She had heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said... Your not pretty, your beautiful, i dont want to be with you forever, i NEED to be with you forever, and i wouldnt cry if you walked away...i'd die...


+wad a disappointment. i dun care wad the fcuk or wad the hell u experiencing. but i've not offended u. dun give me ur attitude or wadever. pple's tolerance has it's limit. u got ur stress and me too. tell me abt ur prob and i'll listen but dun give ur damn attitude! fine, since u dun like me, well, forget abt it. dunwan to irritate u futher. all lies, wad friends... i'm foolish, the foolish me, hahas... why would i thought of that?! how stupid and indeed... loner... i understand now. hope u'll get wad u wan. a loner forever. how foolish i was, how blind... +
iloveyou||20:07

Sunday, March 21, 2004

reach hm at 11pm... so damn tired. today went fer the youth journalist thinggy whole day again. but i think today is the most fun day out of all those 3 days. yeah~~ everything is good... reporters tok to abt their personal experiences and important interviewing techniques. very interesting and fun. then we went fer out door activity. oh man... it was great!! it's like bond our whole grp together lor. we took bus, mrt, and even run madly from place to place. so fun. these games. muz really thanks all our 天鹰组长们！谢谢你们为我们做的一切一切。muz really thanks si han, xin yao (sngs grey badge senior) and xiu hui. juz wanna tell u all, UR are the BEST!! and we love ur. and we also love all our 天鹰 seniors. thanks for giving us support and believe in us. despite "that person" and some other pple's discrimination, we'll still put in our best effort and prove to them we are the best and make them regret look down on us.
天鹰让我们一起前进，我们是最好，最棒，最强的！！！
我们一定要好好的做好我们的每一分任务。
彩虹往往都会在暴风雨之后出现的。
let's work towords the annual prize presentation team awards in september this yr!!! muz really prove to them we got sth kaes (no, is a lot of thing. hahas)!!! yeah~~
+remember there's meeting at 2pm on 27/3, hope everyone can attend.+ seeya!!!
iloveyou||00:58

Thursday, March 18, 2004

today went to SPH fer young journalist training. it's quite fun lah. (actually also not that fun). we are the 19th badge. they keep saying this yr they choose very strictly but i dun think so leh. i mean the article i wrote in is like nothing lor. dunno them lah. then the pple there mostly china pple... they my group all girls from china. including me. except 2 singapore guys. haiz... but those china gals in my group still very chi-na.... they very noisy... dunno lah... sometimes think they very lame. haiz... but they quite nice lah. nice lah. then the leaders like dun like our badge of newbies lor... keep giving us those face, look so bu shuang. wad lor... say we very bad. but i think we ok wad. dunno lah. they so... haiz... this thing is not as great and fun as i thought. haiz... but it's only the first day. hope it'll be better tml and sat. haiz... so much hw nv do yet. haiz...
tml got outdoor reporting... very scary, our group is assigned to the the japanese-war cemetry. nothing much to write leh... haiz... ask us go there interview pple, cemetry got a lot of pple meh? interview ghost ar? haiz... dunno lah... juz hope everything will turn out fine.
iloveyou||22:03

Wednesday, March 17, 2004

today got GIL class!!! arg!!! dying... took this quiz from a friend's link. hmm... interesting.

You are one of the few out there whose wings are
truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and
divine, you are one blessed with a certain
cosmic grace. You are unequalled in
peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of
Light your wings are massive and a soft white
or silver. Countless feathers grace them and
radiate the light within you for all the world
to see. You are a defender, protector, and
caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver
of the wrong, chances are you are taken
advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often.
But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in
everyone and so this mistreatment does not make
you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will
try to help misguided souls find themselves and
peace. However not all Angelics allow
themselves to be gotten the better of - the
Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting
for the sake of Justice and protection of those
less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever
change - the world needs more people like you.


*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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iloveyou||09:41

Saturday, March 13, 2004

today is a wonderful day fer me!!!! woke up at 8.30am. that's early fer weekend. hee. felt damn lucky that my handphone didn't drop to the floor, i was holding my handphone on my hand the whole night (nv release my hand) hahas. suprising. :)

then went fer the youth journalist thingy early this morning. went with cynthia. her interview was at 10.10 but mine is at 10.50 but i went early lor. accompany her lor. hee. then cynthia got drama audition in school this morning and she rush to the mrt station to meet me by cab. almost late. then the stoopid driver almost drive us to SGH when we told him we wanted to go SPH. luckily cynthia was alert where the driver and stop him b4 we go onto the CTE. we were late so we ran all the way to SPH. the pple there were very friendly and bring us up although we were late. hee. so good. while waiting fer cynthia, i was so nervous worrying fer myself, afraid that i can't ans the questions.
finally, it was my turn. the president of the youth journalist and the chief editor interviewed me. was so damn nervous. but of coz i din show it, or did i? hahas. juz keep smiling. then they ask me alot of question, i was like crapping my way through... when i go out of the room i was like "oh god, wad am i doing? dun think i can get in..." was damn sad lor. but hsiang ling and uncle blackie console me... feel better toking to them. hahas. that's wad friends are for!! thank you.

then went to the post office to check a package, the auntie was nice and help me check. hee... then she said it'll be delivered by monday. hee... hope its contents are not crush.

went to school to meet louisa. then tok to anabel (the track one) find she's very friendly. first time toking to her then we tok so much. hahas. made a new friend!! she also got in fer the youth thinngy, but her's not youth journalist but the comic section thinggy. she's so good... cheers!! then went check fer the list of awards put up at the family lounge, and "stood rooted to the ground", staring at the board when i saw my name under the good service award. so shock. didn't expect me to get it. i'm like nothing compared to the others and there's so much better pple out there. really dun deserve it. but i got it. felt happy and fortunate too. hahas

went chinatown to collect the tin fer selling flag. sell with louisa and qian ya. at first went to little india. so little pple donate. sad.... business was not good, so we walk all the way to bugis junction mrt station. wow. there so many pple donate. in 3 hrs time our tin is so heavy already. they pple there so kind!!! love them man. hahas.

then mummy called and said the chief editor called and said i got in the youth journalist thiggy!! and able to go down der 'professional' training on thu, fri and sat (that mean thu can skip CO) hahahas. wow... was damn surprised and shock lor... my god... screamed. +pple look at me as if i'm mad+ hugged qianx. hahas... then the 3 of us tok tok so much while walking. hahas... suddenly all our tiredness seems to be gone. hahas... yeah~~ louisa got into school team fer track, qianx'll become an actress of the cldds script and i got in the youth journalist thingy!!! wow... we were damn happy man!!~~
+if u happy and u know u clap ur hair.......+ hahas.

that also means that i'm going to be damn busy this holiday
sunday --- performance and CJ meeting
monday--- free
tuesday --- CO & tuition
wednesday --- GIL and piano class from 2.30pm to 7.30pm
thursday --- training @ SPH
friday --- training @ SPH
saturday --- training @ SPH

that means i only free on monday. haiz... is this holiday?! but nvm lah. think it'll be very fruitful too! hee. cheers ^_^
iloveyou||22:00

Friday, March 12, 2004

today is so sad.... haiz... okaes, sad to a certain extend. let's tok abt the good things first. i got 12/13 fer my social studies essay!!! woah!! but eveyone also score very well. yeah~~!! 3P rawks in SS. hahas... got back ppr today... then it's so bad!! i got 18 for L1R5 this term... haiz... if i'm going to score like this in Olevels, i'll go to the worst JC... haiz... i scored a F9 for A.maths!!! wad the hell!!!!! other subjects are so so lor... but quite happi with my humans and physics, i got A1. can't believe it man!!! hahas... so happy. a bit disappointed thay i got A2 fer HCL. haiz... gotta work alot harder next term!!!
have to congrat geri and alicia and michelle (shitty mud). they score so well!! geri and shitty mud got 8 only!!! that was amazing!~~ then ailcia got 10. also so good... *envy*
tomorrow i'm going fer the interview... aw... so scare... wad are they going to ask? how am i going to ans?! mummy is going with me... after that have to go and sell flag in chinatown... haiz... going to do it with louisa! yeah!! hahas... if u all see us muz donate kaes. hee
got performance on sunday. nervous. only practice fer twice. omg!!! hope i can make it and won't make any mistake. +pray+
tonite going fer wedding dinner, nice food! but dun feel like going. dunno wad's wrong with me oso... juz feel like spending the nite with my bed at hm... anyway, it's holiday!!!!! yeah!!~~ although there's still so much hw but it's still holiday!!! hahas... be happy. yeah~


You are a human shadow. If a loved one needs you,
you are always right at his or her heels! Your
deep social connection with human beings
produces your qualities of genuine caring and
charisma. However, at times you are naive to
the true nature of your loved ones. Remember
that humans' gift of free will does not always
lead them in wise directions. But your essence
of love and friendship represent the other
precious gifts of humanity. Overall you are a
strikingly valuable and innocent being who has
a lot to give.


What Kind of Shadow Are You? (with gorgeous pics)
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Your Energy is Blue. You are a creative thinker
with an active imagination. Artistic and
talented, you want to reach the stars and bring
them down to form. You are trustworthy, honest
and reliable. Others feel comfortable in your
presence as you project a non-threatening,
serene energy.

You would do well in any of the helping
professions, as an artist, singer, diplomat,
orater, or clergy member.


What color is your energy?
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You are a normal angel. Innocent and pure. Full of
light and hope. You love to be around others,
and really know how to have a good time. You
enjoy hanging around with mortals. You like ti
sing, which you are great at, and like to have
others near you. People are naturally attracted
to your bubbly personaliy, and love to be
around you. Normal angels are always popular,
and have lots of fans. You are happy go lucky,
with an interesting out look on the world.

Though you have experienced pain, that is all
behind you now. You see the bright side to
things, and are always there to help a person
in need. You are quite pretty, with a childish
air, though you know more than others think.

You are a really friendly person. But can be a tad
selfish at times.

You are bright and full of energy.

Better get my shades!


What Type Of Angel Have You Become?
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iloveyou||15:20

Wednesday, March 10, 2004

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
I want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day i'm loving you more than this
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until my dying day

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

Oh, come what may, come what may
I will love you, I will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

I'll love u...
until my dying day...
iloveyou||15:17

Monday, March 08, 2004

tell u all sth!!! me and cynthia got into the journalist thinggy!!! we got into the first round and is able to go to the interview this sat!! so cool!!! i cant believe it man... really hope i'll get through the interview too... good luck to me and cynthia... but wad am i going to wear fer the interview?


iloveyou||22:01

Saturday, March 06, 2004

wad the.... the stoopid tr ask us to do research on twelfth night theme "fate and time"... wad the hell.... can't find anything loh. wad kind of theme is this?!! research fer so long but find anything... why dun she go and search fer herself! pratically nothing... so much on theme of love... but nothing on time and fate!!! hate her man. only know to tok tok tok....
+hmrp+
iloveyou||10:53

Friday, March 05, 2004

time past really fast... my god, one more week then it's holiday!! yeah~~!!! actually there's nothing to be happy also. coz got so much homework and project to do during the holidays. then holiday got GIL class...hate GIL class... sure gonna make a fool out of myself there. haiz...
this week is not as stress as last week. Phew~ hee. got back history test result and it's like... haiz... nv fail but didn't do well though. only 16/25. but quite happy already. mrs tan say our class dun really do well... but i pass!! yeah~~ it's the first elective history test and i got 16...next time will work harder and score better!! *hope so* :)
i scored on 38.5/50 fer chinese. sad rite... haiz... got 2 careless mistakes. then the 2 zao ju i memorise from the book is wrong!! wad the hell lor... wrong zao ju still dare to publish! lousy! make me lost 6 marks! hmp!
today got social studies test. it's not as difficult as i thought. but i dunno how i'll fair for the essays... the first question abt the reasons fer seperation, there's so much to write and it's only 12mrks. while the 2nd questions which is abt the agree or not, merger caused by economic issues, it's like so little to write abt!!! and it's worth 13 mrks!!! haiz... scared i'll fail... haiz...
felicia and i sign the treaty of "jia you" it'll be offiacially launch next week. hahas... it's crappy... but it'll push us to work hard. coz anyone who dun follow the treaty will receive "severe" punishment. hahas.
anyway, nvm abt the tests, next wk the chinese high pple are coming to our school fer exchange program. hahas... so funny... 13 boys in a school of 3000plus gals. hahas.... pathetic. hahas.... then felicia seems very excited abt it. (sorrie, juz kidding fel~) hahas... she said 2 of those 13 coming are her friends... hmm... wondering wad will she do then... hahas... i'm crapping.. full of craps...
today the +beep+ made felicia so angry... but she nv scold her or wad. fel is so kind lor, if it was me i'll surely scream at her like hell... wad the heck lor... so "self-service". pple's things also take without permission and 'invaded' pple's privacy!! haiz... dunno wad to say... poor fel... dun angry liao kaes. hee...
anyway, fel, loui, ellen, weilin and jing yi- rembr to do research on the "time and fate" theme fer twelfth night kaes. meeting tml at 1pm. rmbr kaes!!! if not u'll be dead!!! hahas...

+happy birthday uncle blackie~~+
:) hey! i'm wishing u happy birthday. hahas...
iloveyou||15:03