Saturday, April 30, 2005

we are the CHAMPION!!! YELLOW DOWNUNDER rocks!!! yellow house is the champion house fer 2005!!! yeah!!! finally see yellow first... in my last yr in stnix... gonna miss st nix sports day next yr...


huiying came to my house... taught her canon in d... haven been playing that song for a very long while. quite sick of it alr... hahas. coz last time play too much. but today while i was teaching huiying i begin to like that song again. actually i think my piano sucks... i cant play the song well... i dunno why... i can play the song, infact a lot of songs without making any mistake, but i juz think it's not good. it sounds awful, it sounds so dead... i dunno... juz cant sway and move and "feel" with the music like i use to do before alr... dunno why.. and i've recently lost the mood to play piano... i juz play fer the sake of playing and practising... i dun enjoy it... hui ying said it was nice, but so what? i dun feel happy playing it... fer alot of song, i usually start off quite well den half way i'll lose the will to continue playing... i got irritated and think it juz not good enough.. i dunno what is good enough but i think i'm getting lousier and i dun feel like playing anymore, i dun feel like doing anything.


huiying, weizheng, qiuning, jianbo, justin all told me the same thing... even mama... ytd after talking to huiying went home to think also... hmm... i realli dunno what to do alr...
i dunno...very hard to find someone to confine in. there's always no one there. the end seems so far. so far. claustrophobic... no narrow. i am going to be crush anytime... cant catch my breath...
selfish
selfish
no matter what
still selfish
no matter what i do


hopless...hopeless
nv know
nv sense it
vanity
valueless
useless
iloveyou||17:46

Thursday, April 28, 2005

today's amaths paper on trigo and exponential function different is so so so so so so so difficult!!! even maths experts of the class can laugh over it... coz cant do... ya... really dunno what they talking abt... dotz... so many question so little time... even our very very "high expectation" and "strict" maths tr mrs yeo said "ya, realli not enough time..." we were complaining to mrs yeo at the fruits stall...and was rather surprise that she agrees with us... hmm... ok... shall not talk abt it anymore... demoralise me only.. nvm. i'm not sad over it... not realli sad. coz i tot, i did my best... even maths expert like ying qing and charleen and jing yi also complain that it's difficult den what abt me? yep...


tml is sports day alr!!!!! hope yellow can win! hee... we are currently leading... hope we dun fall back like previous years again. yellow cheer leaders! jia you!!! jeanette jia you!!! all the best. u'll look beautiful tml. hee. meeting huiying and jia xin first... hmm... should we go fer lunch tog? or we eat at home? hmm... i dunno... anything ba.
iloveyou||17:13

Sunday, April 24, 2005

today do physics till so so so sian... magnetism... haiyo... so sian!!!!! so come online to blog... gonna blog abt the sweet things i saw today.. hee....


today morning wake up very early... went to market with mama... hmm... nv been there for so so so long... didnt remb when was my last time there with mama... think is when i was in pri 3 or 4... heh heh... ok... the hustle and bustle of the market make my morning a little unsual from the usual ones... saw alot of pple... alot are mama's friends... they ask, "ur daughter ar? so guai, nowadays daughters dun go markets with their mothers already..." hahas... so funny... i onli went to market with her TODAY... lolx... i dun usually go market with her too... think maybe next week they'll say "haiyo... ur daughter ar... why so so lazy, nv go market with u alr ar?" lolx...


erm... went to thompson plaza popular to buy that physic guide book after going to market... think i went there too early... popular wasnt open yet... i reached there at 9.30 and it onli opens at 10.30.. so went to sit in burger king... drinking milo and observe the passer bys and ther pple sitting and eating in burger king... hmm... it wasnt that bad... i saw a couple... both quite old... think they are in their sixties... it's rather sweet to see pple of such age still "date" in such a modern fast food restaurant.. they share a packet of fries and a drink... so sweet and cute... den when the old man finished eating the last piece of fries, the old lady took out a handkerchief and wipe the old man's mouth... so so so so sweet!!! when u look at them u juz cant help smiling... u can feel the strong bond of love between them... u feel so blissful juz by looking at them... they left, walking out of burger king slowly... hand in hand... it evokes envious in me.... but i am happy fer them... sugar sweet!!


at another table, there's this little boy boy, sitting in the "high chair" that was usually meant for children. he refused to eat the food his mama feed him... he was playing with his toy.. totally engrossed in the toy... den think his mama quite pissed...and point a finger at him... seems rather fierce though... den he wail and wail, so loudly that i think attracted everyone's attention. den there's this little gal... she's abt a little older than him... very tiny gal though, ran towards him and gave him a sweet and ask him not to cry..and he immediately stop crying and put down the toy and smile so broadly at the gal... so cute!!! so chubby!!!! he's hold the sweet at the same time... so cute!!! this scene imprint clearly in my mind... so cute so cute cute cute!!! so sweet too!! it such a beautiful morning in burger king...
iloveyou||18:54

Friday, April 22, 2005

we got GOLD!!!
i am a GOLD member....
yeah... so happy!!!!!!! after all the hard work!!
really so so so so so happy.
we've improved from a bronze in 2003 to a gold in 2005.... know how great the leap is? so proud of everyone in snco. our effort have not gone wasted. hee... thanks to all the instructors too and our conductor. hee.


when they are going to announce the results everyone was so tense and nervous. thousands of butterflies in everyone's stomach... den we they said "team no. 42 chij st nicholas girls school.... .... .... .... .. .. .. . . .. . . .. ( the longest pause i had in my whole life) GOLD!!!" den all of us scream!!! and den tears starts to roll down our cheeks.... tears of joy!! unlike 2 yrs ago.... tears of sorrow...


the funny thing is we scream fer quite some time... think it kinda obstruct the announcing of results... hahas... den they said.. "erm... thank you fer the commotion..." or sth like that, didn't realli care. hahas. erm... think our screams very high pitch.. like "arh!!!!!!" (very high octave C#) den the HCI CO got gold with honours den scream like super low pitch... tenors... lolx... contrast...


but apart from the joy of getting gold... we also feel very sad... coz huang lao shi is leaving already... so sad.... why leave? i mean... we got gold... why leave... without him, chui guan wont be where we are today and we wont get gold... sobx... gonna miss me lots.... but... i believe he dun wan to leave us too... coz he seems so sad today also... he sure got his reasons one rite? haiz.... not for glory, not for fame, for snco he left his name.. in all chui guan pple's heart.
was so sad to hear him said "gals ur did very well... think is the best last gift i received from ur..." so sad... den he shoke my hand... so sad... T_T.... gonna miss him lots!!!!!!!!!


was so high... den think whole CO went out to celebrate aft that... chui guan also... the details i lazy to type le... coz was too high juz now... nw suddenly very tired... hahas...
going off to take a nap alr... ZZZzzzz.....ZZZzzzz....


lurve SNCO...

thank you everyone fer ur support!!! thankyou everyone fer helping us to pray for good results. hee... :)


Choir gold with honours ( rite? or gold ar... forgot le)
Band gold
eldds gold
chinese dance gold
modern dance gold
chinese orchesta gold

it's a marathon of gold.... hope String orchesta will get gold too!!! hee... SO jia you!!! u sure can make it! joli jia you!!!! hee... if u get gold... we'll be GOLDEN couple.. lolx... hahas.


joyce is so so high today!!!!
iloveyou||18:45

Thursday, April 21, 2005

thanks you everyone... joyce is feeling much better... erm... ya... i think i am. and i'll coz "mama" (as in nai nai) will be happy there... i'll be happy fer her and all those who cares for me. :)


happy birthday jian bo!!! i got ur present ready alr! hee... i pass to u some day k. hee. and my skirt. hee.. sorry fer neglecting u these days. coz i very busy with syf.. as in (singapore youth festival) if we do well den i treat nanny to a drink at coffee bean k. hee...


thank you tongtong, wingyanyan, weilin,samuel,tww,jb and all fer ur comfort and thanks fer listening to all my grumbles....


to tww... hee... u know who u are. hee.. thanks fer the concern. i'm realli ok. dun worry. i wont die. hee... u take care also k.


to syf, i see rainbow... after the storm. i lurve sfy!


tml is syf alr!!! ARG!!!!! so excited... but at the same time i'm very nervous! i hope we can do well. realli. but everyone, relax k... muz have confidence in ourselves and do our best. no matter what the results will be tml, as long as we've tried our best den we should have no regrets.


to all my juniors... jia you!!!!!!!!!!!
weiting, u are good.
lynn, improved alot le wor... but myz be careful of the note "D"
huici, relax k, dun cry... u got my warm warm hug!! hee... again +huggies+ juz be natural, move with ur emotions, dun need to care abt what other things.
to mun xin... jia you. joyce lurve u!!
to qiuning, i believe in u!!!hee
to jiantong, hopw ur finger get well tml.... +pray hard+
to wing yan, keep moving and dun be too stress...
to joyce koh, alt u are unable to be there with us, but u are always part of us! we love u too!!!
joyceC lurve joyceK. hee...

everyone all the best fer SYF tml!!! hee... SNCO jia you!!
iloveyou||19:42

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

the sky fell and the earth had cracked...

today is a very special day... a very sad day... i get what i wan and i lost what i treasure dearly... thanks weilin and mun xin fer comforting me... so useless cried so so much...


i got 18/20 fer emaths... not bad rite? i should be happy, i got what i want. but i juz cant be happy... today is a bad day. a very very bad day. so bad. so terrible. the worse day of my life...


i lost two very precious things...


1st..
u left juz like that. silently... u never wait fer me to go back to china and u are gone. i tot u told me u'll see me come back one day and buy u a big house? i tot u told me not to be afraid, u'll always be there for me. i tot u told me u'll wait for me to return from singapore and bring back nice food to eat this yr end? i tot u said u love me the most? no mama, no papa but got nainai... half of my life till now i spend with u... when papa and mama not there it was u, took care of me. teach me how to be a good gal. see me through as i grow from a baby to a child and saw me leave u to come to singapore? u told me "dun cry, coz we'll meet again when i grow up and become successful and return to china..." i tot so... why u leave juz like that. i was so shock when i received the news... although u are not here with me, but always, when i feel that i cant carry on with life, i'll think of u and u taught me to be strong.taught me not to be afraid in a foreign land. u promise me u'll wait for me to return why u leave juz like that? so healthy, and den fall down, den juz left like that? why u abandon me? when i receive the news this morning... i was realli shocked. nainai why u go juz like that? u forgot abt me... why today? why today? when i need u most? :'( :'( :'(


2nd...
all that i have done?!
u asked... u denied all my lurve. u think u are a fool u think i cheated on u... u think that way... from the beiginning till the end u nv believe me... u think and u think and u dun use ur heart to feel it at all... how can u said all those hurtful things? u can leave but dun denied all that i've gave... i know it's nothing to u but i did put in all that i have. i realli only wan u to be happy. u said u have no strength to carry on so i let go... dun wan to drag u on any longer. u wont be happy. but u can be happy and u dont need to feel trapped anymore... it's all my fault. why u always think i am the one toying u and requesting to leave? u wan to leave, dun u? u said u have no strenght to carry on... i'm juz doing u the favour. i dun wan to let go... i realli dun wan... i am so sad... u know how much i wan to tell u that.. how much i wan to said... but i couldnt... i never hear ur voice fer so so so long. all that communications btw us these months only words... words and words and words only...how much can i say in the msgs? i wan to talk to u but i am always not given the chance.
i'm not a person without feeling... these months these days, u think i'm realli that emotionless? u still dun believe me. how i wish we can always be the pig and tortoise the mao and the wai we used to be... but things are not the same alr... we never will be like that.rite? can we? i tot we can always be OOO...i realli tot so...
but... it's all my fault....
no matter what, thank you fer all the memories... thank you... :'( :'(


nainai left today, tortoise climb away today, without even looking back, denying all that the old home once supply. it's coz the old house is realli smelly and dirty and really not good enough... but it's still once provide u a roof over the head, hadn't it? nana left me....even nana leave me... no one there alr... why both tog? why both tog? all happen today... why?


today is a lousy day... my liquid paper ran out of ink while doing the chinese paper... den pen ran out of ink while doing the physic paper... nv bring wallet, nv bring file, nv bring books, never bring CO uniform, never calculator... all and all... onli bring an empty depress heart... nothing went in, nothing come out... it's still the same.. but the things around me are never the same... i nv told nainai how much i lurve her and also the same to the tortoise that left home... but it doesnt matter now... somethings, once it's gone it'll never come back... the clock still ticks and time still going on... moving. it wont stop for me and so i have to go on no matter how hard it is... even without nana... even when i'm all alone... even when my world has fall apart...

the sky fell down today.. the earth cracked today... as my world torn apart....
iloveyou||19:43

Friday, April 15, 2005

haiz.. as expected i failed my amaths test. by one mark!!!!! so sad... very very sad.... it's not like i never practice. this is the 2nd time i failed a maths test this year alr... how how? haiz... i tot i tried very hard alr, but i still fail...


fall and force myself to stand up and i fall again and i force myself to stand up again and den keep falling... i'm realli tired... i wan to lie flat there, i dun wan to climb up alr...what's the use landing urself in agonies again and again? what's the use. u fall and u tell urself to stand, but before u take another step forward, u are down again. in the end, u are still at that same pathetic point, where u've started, u've not move forward, u are still there... alone there... why? despite the hard work i've put in? mrs yeo said, "joyce i've seen u improve this yr.. and can see ur effort. keep it up!" but what's the use? i am still a failure?


miss yeo talked to me today... yar... told me lots of things... tell me to carry on and not to give up and tell me that i can make it eventually coz i got the attitude, but nothing is comfirm until i've gotten my olevel results...


you told me
the future belong to those who believes in the beauty of their dreams...
u told me
i'll do better if i keep trying
u told me
to not give up
u told me...
i believe u
i believeD u...
tears shed
hopes vanished
what do i get?
i'm still here..
lies.lies.lies.
i'm tired.
do u realli understand?
torn aparted
shattered... ... ...
why give me the ray of light
when it the end
storms clouds are going to cover it again?
iloveyou||15:50

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

today so suai!!! diarrhoea during the run lah... haiyo... den run damn slow... haiz... as fer the timming, shall not mention alr.... see so many pple ran past me... sport class pple damn zai lor... haiyo... but quite impressed by myself also. hee... coz i nv stop during the run even though my stomach hurts like hell... den vivian keep asking me to stop running... but nah... alr ran 3 rounds le... might as well ran all the way through rite? and it's kinda stupid to tell the tr u wan to stop coz u got diarrhoea. lolx... so immediately after the run i am surprise that i still got the energy to SPRINT to the toilet... lolx... den during pe basket ball also keep asking to go toilet... twice... dunno what i ate wrongly in the morning.. maybe is due to the milk i drank.... hmm....


get back my english essay... guess what? i flunked it... erm.. 13 / 30 how great lor... so GREAT!!! think i suck at agruementative essays... haiz... think i better do descriptive or narrative essays during olevels. if not i realli gonna retain coz i fail my english paper.... :(


erm... today emaths test okay... okay lor... hope can do well... hmm... i am very afraid to get back amaths differentiation paper... think maybe i'll get zero out of forty.... die le alh... dun even know i'm doing... haiz... :( erm... chem test ytd was ok... maybe not so ok... hopefully i can pass... those funny funny question that i didnt expect to come out... like... "what's the use of adding aluminium foil when testing for anion nitrate?" i was like hur?? i dunno!!! it's not inside the book so i dunno... (kinda jin3 di3 zhi1 wa1 la) but i realli dunno mah... i was going to ask her with jeanette before the test de... den we tot, aiya it's not impt lah... ask her after that.... den who knows it came out as a test question??!!! haiz... suay...


anw... ytd no time to update blog.. so now i am here blogging.. erm... and i'll not forget to thank ...

jiantong, wingyan, minjun,stelli fer celebrating my BELATED bdae with me ytd... thanks fer the cake... still prank me ar... bluff me and make me wait fer charissa outside the 3 charity class like an idiot... hahas... thank you leh... even though it's very BELATED. lolx... the cake so creamy!!! think i am realli going to grow realli fat!! but it's very delicious. hahas...
(despite the cake, jian tong still cant resist the temptation of her eggy toast... yucks... i dun like... wet wet soggy soggy de.... how come u like it so much? i think i can make better omelette toast than that. next time i make fer u fer ur bdae k. lolx...)


thank you jeanette fer your flower.. very beautiful... but it's dying i think... lolx... maybe i didnt put it in water... hahas. :) thanks you so much. :)


and weizheng ~~ eh... thanks leh...realli got me a HCI PE t-shirt...(erpz....) hahhas... thank you anw... hee :)
iloveyou||14:04

Monday, April 11, 2005

yep... today is so comical!!! i'm all wet lah when i go home... how nice... and how embarrassing!!! i was walking home after physic pratical lesson den i start to rain! and it's pouring!!! heavy!!! with the strong wind howling like what? a typhoon? lolx... close to one... hahas... den my useless umbrella is so useless!!! coz it's very light weighted... therefore it's only suitable fer usage under the sun. difinately not in the heavy rain like this...
fine... continue my story... erm... i was hugging my file and presents (^_^) with one hand... and holding the umbrella in another. the wind was so strong that at a point of time i think i cant move forward! (serious k! not exaggerating kaes!) den my stupid umbrella looks like it's going to break any time... the folds between the stem concaved and i'm realli scared it will fly away in another direction. and it realli did!!!!! when i was walking downhill...along ave 2 (coz ave 2 gate not open) my umbrella flew across the road!!!!! arg!!! it flew like a helpless yellow paper plane, backwards, backwards... and finally "piazz!" stuck on a tree!!! damn embarrassing can!!! but luckily there's no passer-by at that time... so poor me... stood rooted to the ground in the pouring rain and gazed in amazment... erpz.... so... no choice lor... walked hope umbrella-less... and got myself drenched!! from top to bottom, outside to inside... all wet!!!!! haiz...
when i got home, mama still laugh when i told her what happen!! hrmp!not only she's unable to empathise with my unfortunate encounter she still laughed so loudly when i told her!!! :( hrmp!!! stupid umbrella!!!
but luckily my bag is waterproof!! so my worksheets and books didnt get wet... phew~~


erm... enough abt the stupid umbrella... there's somemore pple i wanna thanks today. ahhas...


thank you joyce koh fer your 1000pieces precious moment puzzle!!! hee... erm... i was so touched when i read the card and i'm realli sorri i was able to be there to thank you personally... coz u know i always dun go ot school early...so when u left the present on my chair i wasnt there to thank you.. i'm realli sorry but i'm really thankful to you k... hee... u muz gain back ur health soon and very soon!! so that we can go do more things tog.. we can go play and run tog, without ur mama worrying. hee... and oh ya... u said i alws make "joyful noise" and thus u bought that puzzle with the words "joyful noise" fer me rite... hee... but it will be meaningless to make noise by myself... therefore i'll wait for u to get well and wait for olevels to be over den we solve the puzzle together k... only then will the two joyces will make joyful noises together. hee.. i'll wait and u muz hold on there also k. hee... i know u are trying hard... try harder u are almost there! muz get well soon k. :) lurve ya lots.


and also, thank you weilin, felicia, alicia and qianya fer ur very very nice caty pencil box with alot of pockets. hahas so cute. but i dun dare to bring to school to use coz i'm afraid i'll dirty it as it's very white. lolz.. hee... and also.. i like that lolipop shaped soap... it look so delicious... so big and so nice in the shade of beautiful purple. hee.. but it's soap.. hahas... so when i bathe with it, i think i'll probably drool over it. lolx... thanks alot. hee. lurve ya lots too. :)


and not forgetting my "affair" hahas... dear charissa, i muz admit, u are realli very ingenious and u got me the weirdest bdae present. ahhas. the what? clean and clear facial wash~~~!!!! halow~~~~ is my face tat pimple full???!!! dotz... lolx... but realli appreciate it k... as u said, it's safety precaution, and it'll keep me away from pimples. lolx...so that i wont ever get pimples. lolx... hahas. MUACKS! hee.


k, i gtg study fer chem test tml le. hee.. everyone mug hard! hee.. jia you!
iloveyou||16:03

Sunday, April 10, 2005

sorry everyone... hee... i was rather busy these day so nv blog. hahas.. so here i am blogging again.. blogging to thank alot of pple. hee...

ok... erm... thank you everyone for celebrating my bdae with me. so happi... :) realli. and very touch too. i know everyone is so busy in their work, yet take the time to prepare sth fer me and take time to sms me ur wishes. hee.. thanks you alot. here are some of the pple i wanna give special thanks to...


[charleen] thanks fer the curshion like thinggy... realli cute. hee... thanks alot and oh ya, ur letter was so so so beautiful and artistic!! u mean u drew it? it realli look like it's being printed on... hee... i'm sure u'll do very well in the art industry in the future and also in ur AEP. hee... i like the ingenious bottle too! hee...


[yingqing] thank you fer the happy house magnets and the card... i stick the magnets on the refrige and my mom said it's very cute! hee... and i lurve ur card! so pretty... juz like u. hee and so sweet too.. ur handwritting is so nice also :)


[jing yi] thanks fer the PINK photo frame with the PINK hearts wrapper. hee... i didnt know u are so pinky. lolx... thanks alot dear. hee


[ellen and jess] thanks fer ya perlinsilver bracelet and earings. hee... so pretty and exquisite. lurve it. so surprise that ur got that fer me... hee... tot jess probably gonna get me a soccer ball. hee...


[4 purity] thanks fer singing me the bdae song.. and sorry fer getting ur into scolding my molly coz it "sounded like thunder!" lolx. thank you everyone. gonna miss all or ur next yr this time...


[tian ying newbies] thanks fer celebrating my bdae with me. i was shocked!! coz i tot ur realli nv finish zi geng di... den got so worried...(who know's it's juz a prank to make me rush down from school lah!) but luckily i went down... cant afford ur to charge into my school. lolx... thanks everyone fer the cake.. it's realli delicious :) but i think i'm going fatter now... after eating the creamy toffee cake... :) lurve ya lots!!


[eileen (sph)] thanks fer the wallet. hee.. glad that u still rembr. hee... hope u like ur belated present from me also.


[weizheng, chengyao, ting jie, hui fen] thanks fer singing me the bdae song in the LIFT!!! lolx...so funny de... muz be weizheng's ideal rite. and weizheng is so crappy... still give me that piece of note... dotz... erm.. ya... like lucky draw like this.. needa reedem de. lolx..


[liu qiong] thanks fer ur wishes and that sms. hee... u are forever my best friend!! erm.. 6yrs liao... hahas. i'll always rembr u. hee... best of the best! hee...


[joli-laogong] thanks fer ur wishes hor! but where's my vdae cum bdae pres? i'm disappointed... lolx. nah. thanks fer everything. hee...


[nizhen, liuzhen, samuel and all my xiao yings(eagles)] thanks fer flooding my inbox with lotsa sweet, heartwarming wishes. realli brighten up my day. when i dun even know some of my newbies... they still nv forgot to send me regards. hee... realli appreciate it. i'll make an effort to remrb all f ur too. hee :)


[jian bo] thanks fer the skirt. hee... sorry... i realli like that white skirt! haahaa... coz is i choose long time ago de mah... erm.. during new year rite? lolx... thanks you so much. hahas.


[my beloved family] thanks fer the money. lolx... hahas. i'm so money face... thank you. :) (although i know none of ur will even read my entry. hee... thanks anw..)


[my da and xiao cousin] sorry lah. rip ur... spent so much of ur money. hahas... realli like the white top and black skirt ur got fer me. hee. if i know so ex...den i wont choose le... ahha... they dun have the price tag there... so i didnt see when i was trying.. lolx... who knows it'll coz a bomb. hahas.


and to those i never mention.. it doesnt meant that i forgot abt ur.. hee.. i realli thank ur alot hee.. lurve ya lots too! hee. muacks!


yea. mama's gonna make steam boat fer us today!!! i'm so hungry this morning... coz ytd night pratically didnt eat any lunch and dinner. lolx.. juz ates losta junk food and the delicious toffee cake by my little eagles. hee... den wasnt feeling well that time... when i reach home... it became a total disaster! i vomit everything and went to sleep with an empty stomatch... that's why i'm so hungry this morning and ate one whole piece of cheese cake!! think i'm realli going fat!! oh no!!!


+gone+
gotta go and do my work alr.. hee.. next week so much tests. need to study.


*miss ya lots*
iloveyou||07:56

Thursday, April 07, 2005

i so so so LIKE KRISTINE man!!! wad the... pple sat alr say will go see nyghs practice den say what we chui guan all have to go down early to have practice with her. wadever. i am not going! see her face ar, i'm afraid i might lose all my morale to play well in the coming syf. i think it's useless to have to coach us. i mean, "do u think u know my instru?" u think u wad. senior so what? u ask urself, when u are in snco, can u realli play the dizi that well? my foot! last time u tot ur batch snco gonna get gold,with the wonderful expert u... but in the end still get wat? bronze? u think u realli that good ar? reflect please. listen to u crap waste my time only! only know how to say "ur are lousy lah so damn lousy like shit." halow. we know we are lousy, but we definitely improved from last time ur batch ok. and improve so much. even now we still sound like shit, at least is better quality shit than ur shit! IDIOT! i'm so so so PISSED!!!!!! and den as a senior who always come back to see us, i'm sure u can say more than "ur are very lousy like shit lor.." if u are always there i'm sure with ur talent in co, u sure know where we went wrong and which part, which bar is lousy right? den come, tell us lah. only know how to complain but dunno how to help ur juniors improve, dun tell us where we went wrong, which part not right, which bar not good how we improve rite? we are not all so "musically inclined" like u kaes. wadever. hate it man. it's not that we are complacent or wat k, have u seen us practice? it's not practicing lor... it's realli drilling!! ask anyone who's with huo lao shi, u'd know... and u without knowing anything keep saying we are like shit. what's the prob with u?! or rather, what's the prob with us? tell us lah. juz say we like shit, as if we can improve like this... halow? u got brain or not?

pardon me fer my language and my tone... but i am realli very angry. she obviously nv see the effort we put in... and she's infact wasting alot of our time by FORCING us to listen to her crap! u got no right my dear! even we are the worse CO in singapore, pls dun say we sound like shit k. we shit u shitier (erpz..is there such word?)

u think snco like u is it? come, trying asking anyone in co if they like u (except ur sister) see who'll say yes k... den u'll know how unconstructive and irritating u are. thank you very much.
iloveyou||19:13

Saturday, April 02, 2005

i lost my ezlink card!!!!!!
i'm so so so so depress right now!!! i lost my cutest ezlink card!!!! how? the one and only with my "fishball" face... i was very fat when i was in pri school (even though i am still now...) but the 50KG joyce face photo on my ezlink card is gone!!! and i lost it!!!!!! sobx sobx :( lost ezlink card twice in my sec school life... haiz...


today i was actually so high... going to sph to fa1 hu4i xun4 today de... den when i was going to board the bus after cca to sph, i search my pocket and i cant find it!!!!!! arg!!!!!! how how how? so so so so so sad!!!!!!! den when i was abt to change to 88 they called and tell me "yuru ar... dun need to come alr... becoz we are fininsh soon..." another big thump on my heart! this is the first time i'm not present at sph when our "baby" is coming out to this world.. sobx...so... all my happiness drain away and only disappointment accompanied me home... sobx!!


alright, basically today's practice quite crappy lah... so many pple come and see us... den woah...many of them like nv see guys before lah, so damn noisy!!!! trying to get attention is it? irritating... den took so long to settle down... sianz... feel quite ashame of their suddenly change of attitude as a senior... was like "diaoz..." when some of them see the chs pple outside the music room den keep chanting "lai le lai le... ta men lai le! hahahahaha" wah... they lai le u so excited ar? how come i go co no one say "joyce lai le lai le!! ta lai le!" and greet me with big smile? den luibin also funny... or was that wing yan "play fer them... but dun need to play too well also..." lolx... so funny... sneaky snco. lolx...


today i alot of things to complain lah... erm... the kristine ar... abit the NOT extra only lah... in dunno what unknown JC, den go AA and change in RJ and HCJC uniform.. halow~~ the whole world knows u are not in the top 5 JC lah... dun need to act... dotz... den talk so much during announcement... CRAP so much!!! act as if u very the... erm... i shall not comment... pple rushing home lah... some pple got lesson later on u know... u think pple so free to listen to ur unconstructive talks meh..."dun go RJ, go AJ... AJ co better..." dotz.... halow~~~ u are not in the position to comment lor... u are in neither of them... damn irritating... say and repeat so many times lor... u think i so free ar... should have left CO immediately after i keep my instru and not listen to ur crap. tot will get some constructive comments on how to improve.. but... haiz... nvm...


whole family going to malaysia today fer qing ming jie... so that left me ALONE at home lor... nvm... shall appreciate and enjoy my personal space and time.


oh ya... sorry juztin... didnt know u still there... tot u left alr.. so we ate abt half the chocolate... hee... paiseh leh.. hee.. next time see u again give u another whole bar of chocolate... next time buy time out. i think timeout chocolate taste much nicer. hee :) sorry k... woah... anw, long time nv see u alr. almost forgot how u look like alr.. hee... den saw samuel... tot someone said dun wan to come? (erm.. is it?) dun rember... hahas. hey... i think u still look quite the same leh... even though u got ur special diet. lol. but not fat lah.. so tall and look juz nice. fit and strong. den the dao tian or dunno who lah.. u said he's still in diet... but to me still abt the same as last yr i saw him in maf leh... lolx... (no offence ar!!) ^_^


shall end off by saying...


"perfect means i lurve u!" hee///
perfect [u]
perfect [tortoise]
perfect [monkey]
perfect [tulip]
perfect [letter]
perfect [stars]
perfert [us]



candles...


candles [sparks]


tortoise and stars!


smiling tortoise!!


orangie red tulip


purple tulip
iloveyou||17:23

Friday, April 01, 2005

one week passed and what have i done? NOTHING!!!! and now MOE juz announced that out prelims will still be counted and still have first 3 month posting admission into the JC/CL.... haiz... i tot they said last yr our batch wont have le, but why now still have?? that means i have to quicken my pace of studying and revising...


i've juz read a story... very long... but very very touching... if u have the time, it's realli worth reading... u nv know how nice until u finish reading every part of it....
read from introduction k.... dun miss anw part of the story. if not u'll really gonna miss sth that's so rare and so nice...

http://euphoria.webvena.com/story001b.html
iloveyou||18:09