Saturday, November 19, 2005

IT'S FINALLY OVER !!!!!!!!


Os id finally over!!!! arH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so relieved!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahas... it's juz like throwing away a huge burden... it's so fun!!!!!!!!but still can't get use to the "new life" now... suddenly so realax.. nothing to do... not racing against time, not struggling hard to follow my very tedious and pack time table fer revision...need not worry about and "next paper" anymore.... it's juz so PHEW!!!! but.... rathe, "what should i do now then?" hahas....


thursday was very ill..... +faints+ hahas... den was so scare i cant go fer my last paper on friday. i had a tinge of the feeling of death.... cant breathe.... panting. acute pain... pale... den lost conscious... nv in my life i experience anything like this.... i thought that's the end.... i'm not exaggerating.... it's juz... -blank-


when i woke up... dad was worried... mum too... but i worry even more.... i have less time to study history and chemistry... i was scared... realli scared... but the pain dont go away... oh well.... took 4 panadol pain killer.... weary. tired. painful... i sat down and force Mao and his policies and his great leap forward, cultural revolution in to me... i placed my bet on him. realli. but it's kinda stupid to study onli one county. so look thru japan and TOV and LON too... and time realli flies.... when i finished study history it's already 9!!! den i start on my chem... nothing seemed to get into my head as butterflies fluttering in my stomach took almost all my nerves and attentions away... worries..... endless worried...."oh no!! NO TIME NO TIME!!" that's all in my mind...
cant sleep
slept at 12.30 wake up at 5
tired...
teary eyes...
went to school.
nervous!
elective history came...
it....
MAO - Cultural Revolution 1966!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PHEW>>> yeah!!!
suddenly i felt a wave of confidence went into me... hahas... i wrote my 2 essays in 40 mins!
but my source base - quite pathetic... dunno how to anw source B ans... i think i'm out of poin for that question... oh well.. 6 marks ... bye bye...
but nevertheless... i think it's still better than ss.
hope my combine humans wont fail me... please give me a good grade.


rush home.
chionging fer chem alr.
i cant disappoint someone... someone who has done so much for us.
someone, whom because of us sacrafice 2 important things of ... .... life...
it's very sad...
but thanks to ....
we are who we are now....
i believe all of us will do u proud.


chem was rather managerable...
it was good. at the end of the paper i heard someone said
"ai ya... study so hard for what!"
ya... hmm... ok....
i think the paper was infact very managerable...
and i think for one to attain an distinction is not a very difficult task.
but i ponder...
it all of us find it easy, so does everyone else in singapore ..
and the prospect of it makes me worry...
what if everyone do very well?
den, getting a distinction will be extreme difficult already....
they cant possible give everyone an distinction right?
oh man...
i juz hope carelessness has not act upon me
and i hope i'll be one of the lucky ones....
i really need th do well for chem.
i realli need...
coz i'm not feeling too good abt physics.
maths and amaths were rather good and ok....
chinese was quite ok too...
but...
oh well... think i shouldnt let complacency take over now...
the greater ur hopes,
sometimes will also mean the greater your disappointment will be.
but let's pray hard, that will not happen to us.


i wish everyone who had work really hard for os get what they deserve.
i hope next year, when i see ur, my dears friends in the school hall again, i'll see pple hugging each other sharing tears of joy and happiness. i hope everyone in purity will make their names on that board... u know... "that board!" hahas...


after chem paper, went home bathe and changed then went out!!! went town! it has been a long long long time since i last put my feet into the grounds of town....it jux looked spectacular ytd night at town... i see many students... still in their school u... muz be those who had juz finished Os and As. i felt happy, high and glad that i'm also one of the "survivor" of this long marathon...


rushing to get my harry potter tickets... but all of it were either full of left the first row seats... we didnt take it. and we choose the better seats ones at 12.50!!! oh man... first time i watch mid night show. mum allowed me, surprisingly... hahahas... happy... ....


... er...erm...
felt very blissful and happy then....
i fell asleep in front of istana... fer dunno how long... haha... was very tired...
after alternating between bouts of intense worries and fears fer the past fer nights, finally i'm at peace and can sleep peacefully... even it's not on my bed...hahas...
i had a good sleep.
thanks pillow..
:) hahas...


harry potter was as splendid as thought...
it's 3.30am when i got out of the theater... hahas... was yawning...teary eyes... kinda red...due to long hours of wearing the contact lens...
took it off...walk along the quiet and cooling night.
it was nice and refreshing...
thanks.
thanks fer everything...


4.30am reached home...
than you mama fer waking up specially to open the doors fer me.
:D
quick shower
sleep...and
ZzzzzZzzzz
this time round, i sleep till 9.30...
no dreams abt exams anymore....


thank you for making my last day of Os so wonderful.
i have had a great time.
yup. thank you
thanks to everyone, thanks to everything.

iloveyou||12:44