Saturday, August 20, 2005

it has been a week since i last came online... erm... yaya
know what. it's funny that i like weekends....
it's not funny though, coz everyone likes weekends...
but it's funny for me...
when i was in primary school, i dont realli like weekends, coz weekends means that i cant see my beloved classmates and friends and "lalalalalla".... hahas..
i'd alws be lonely during weekends and tired....
den when i came to sec school, i realise my fond for weekends has grow... yeah. love it now.
coz weekends are very relaxing and pull me out of my stressful days in school...
enough crapping. but...
i feel happy during weekends and i look forward to friday even from the moning of sunday. hahas.


ok... i feel that one cannot like something too much.... of wish for something too much... sometimes ur wish would chase all that u wished away... i mean SOMETIMES... hahas....


i like weekends but strangely, i alws got ill during weekends... like last week, this week... monday is olevel english oral exam and i'm suffering from a bad sore throat now... haiz... can bearly talk nicely for 10 seconds... oh no!!!! -pray hard that i get well soon-
probably it's due to my excess cereal comsumption.. and yep, the fried food we had yesterday... during the sec 4 fare well party... oh well... the juniors are so so so so so so so ....oh shall not say ur... as a very nice senior i took so much food for ur...tot we'd be happy sharing... but i realised i was wrong. all 4 of them plus 1 from zhong run juz REFUSED TO EAT!!!! den poor me and mun xin had to finish all the food! u know how much was that ????? oh man. i was so bloated!!!! think i'm growing fatter now... from all the chocolates and fried chicken wings fries, and stuff....
although it was a simple party but it was rather heart warming... can see my little darlings. hope ur like the chocolate mashmallow. i think it's supersweet but i also think it's supernice. hee.. heard quite a lot of gossips... yea... think i'm very "lao pok" coz i am merely burying myself in my books and nv went back like munxin to get the lastest updates abt things. hahas... we talk abt...yellow...hahas... ok... it's a irony that my blog music is YELLOW too... lolx... oh ya... still got "yellow banana". it's interesting how minds of our juniors work... lolx...to come out with such names and link it so well that it almost become the mataphor of that person... oh wells... i shall be a nice senior to ALL my juniors... i believe things change and pple do too... i juz hope that all of ur can mingle happily together and ya... u know... bring honour to our section and our instru and of coz snco. hee. cast those unpleasant feelings aside. ok? hee... jia you everyone...



oh ya... thanks snco fer giving me that "miss intrapersonal" award... lolx... was realli shocked when i heard my name. i think muz be no award fit me den juz anyhow dump me one award rite? hahas... but nvm.. i like the prize i got. very cute! hahas... nicer than what munxin got ... that supposed to be "helping hand" was scary!!! lolx... but i think mx muz be very happy too. rite? hahas. i think no body else deserves the award more than she do. hahas... the sec 4 seniors are happy! hee...
oh ya. mun xin, send me the photos kaes! hee...


gotta go study alr. prelims is next week... but i dun feel stress suddenly... i'm numb... numb now... i realise i have less and less interest for everything nowadays and "numbness" over took me... well... shall not talk abt this.. it makes me feel vunerable sometimes and "out of control"... somethings are rather depressing to talk about... and i prefer to not talk abt them... running away from them and avoiding them may not be a good solution to this. but at least it can stop me from thinking about them and sinking into it..avoiding them made me numb to things but ironically, "numbness" is not a bad thing though...i think.... i hope so...


everyone go out with a disguise..
everyday...
he or she may be smiling
and u see her smiling...
but who will ever know,
all this is juz a form of disguise...
behind that smile it's tears that u cant see....


i feel xxxxxxxxx!!!!
but nobody knows...
iloveyou||08:57

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

HAPPY BDAE singapore!

since today is singapore's birthday, i shall type in red and white. hee...
i'm typing very carefully now... beacause i cant see what i'm typing... hahas... coz this is white-ish grey. hee... white font looks cool. and typing without seeing what u've typed is cool too. lolx.


was in a state of melancholy ytd. but now was feeling better. coz i went ps to watch wedding crashes!!!we went in the evening. hee... so i manage to get my homework done in the day and afternoon. if not i'll not go out with ease. hee.. hee... anw, wedding crashes is realli realli hilarious. so funny! laugh till i wanna die, stomachache!!! lolx.. so funny can! "i believe there's true love, and they do exist..." anw, it's NC-16 hee...so, some pple cant watch.. heh heh... and u know what, i tot we wear till so mature looking, and i'm in my that very old fashion retro blue skirt... they still ask "are u guys really sixteen already?" i was like... erpz.... "duh" lolx... den she didnt ask us fer ic... lol. hahas. ok... it was a funny and sweet show. hahs...


okies... going to watch charlie and choco factory with zhi xuan, weilin, ellen, and chen ye on thurs after school, thurs have combine humans test rite? and is there differentiation and integration test on friday? if got i think we'll not go?, i suppose? rite? hee... i dunno who's going too (not sure who's going)... coz xuan juz ask me but nv tell me who's going. hee...
ok... first of all i muz congrats xuan. hahas... on her "date" with .."usnati" lolx... silent is a kind of intimate communication too! lolx... hahas... +i know u gonna say "yea rite"+ lolx.


last but not least, wanna thanks wing yan for so kindly scan fer me the emaths practice paper. hee... thanks alot my dear. love ya! muacks! hee...


and also... last and last but not at all least.
i know our fellow tian ying mates have realli work very hard to get our new letter publish on time. hee... thank you everyone. i'm sorry and am feeling very guilty now for not being able to go down to help ur. thanks pple! :D

iloveyou||09:47

Monday, August 08, 2005

i am sick and tired of this life.


and the green and yellow melancholy,
she sat like patience on a monument...
smiling at grief...
was this not desperate indeed...
desperate for olevels to be over....


i screw up everything...
studies
relative velocity (interception problems)
naggy mother
endless study
complaints from the naggy mum
u!


dun call me that anymore.
i dun like it anymore.
look upon it with contempt now


it no longer belong to me.
somebody else taken it...
share it
so i dun wan
i dun wan it anymore.


i wan to delete it from my memory
-deleted-


why my heart still aches?
i hate what i am feeling now...


look at the starts
look how they shine for u...


i look at the stars,
none of them is shinning for me...
iloveyou||10:01

Sunday, August 07, 2005

ytd was a fruitday to a certain extend. coz i wasted my whole morning slacking in sph...went down early. I TOOK TAXI DOWN!!!! coz i thought i was late. but somepple ar... time change alr, nv tell me... ok... fine... nvm.. shall not dwell over such small tiny things... muz learn to be a gracious lady..lolx.
but i am still kinda pissed over such irresponsible at.
den i realise i wasn't the onli one.
if liuzhen nv call him early, liu zhen wld have been a victim of his irresponsibility too...
dian jun was obvious another pathetic victim
and also ting yu...
and of coz, it's ME!!!


ok...den my whole morning wasted! onli did half a sum of relative velocity. oh god, i realise i havent master all of relative velocity yet... my interception problems still kinda weak... somebody save me!!!! i need coaching!


erm... ok.. after noon till 9pm in the night was rather productive. uncle,hansen,dianjun,yuzhi and me, we were very very very very serious in doing our paiban (layout fer the newsletter), coz if we dun complete it by today! (SUNDAY) we have to pay fine of 80bucks!!! of coz we wont wanna get the fine, tian ying's fund is not alot though.....cant afford... hmm... maybe i shall consider some ways to earn money out of sph next year when i become the leader. hee.. hahas... erm...write to qu huo!!! do more zi gen di!!! (but zi gen di requires a lot of time and effort) hmm.... nvm... qu huo better. hee :D
thank you hansen for giving me some very useful and excellent advise on how to deal with the group. i'll do my very best, (only after Os :D) hee... and i hope i wont disappoing ur. :D


gotta go lib alr... gotta go there study! hee...
TODAY gotta do

01. relative velocity
02. amaths revision papers
03. CRO and logic gates worksheets
yep. shall not be too ambitious... juz these three are enough to keep me studying and stick my ass to the chair all day already. hee...


i dreamt of u last night... funny dream though... but i dreamt of u..
iloveyou||08:55

Friday, August 05, 2005

i know how to do relative velocity already!!!! yeah!!!!! :D :D
haiz...
miss school today.
heard that the amaths test was a disaster!


ytd eng. elit test juz as horrible!
i dunno how to do 2/3 of the paper 2!!! OMG!!!!!
lolx... den the whole class staring at each other... i think ytd was the day all of us most willing to hand in paper even before the test time ends... lolx...
die... prelims in another 3 weeks... OMG!!
gotta study already!!!!
i am studying already!!!!!


i am so proud of u!!!!!!!!!!!!! hee
so proud!!!!!!!!!!hee...
i feel as if i have juz eaten 10 bars of FOX's chocolate biscuit! hahahas...
iloveyou||19:10

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

we had a great plan!!!


hahas...


but i'm not telling u...boo hoo...hahas...
bleahs.. :D


joyce is indulge in +writting notes....alot more to go!!! xuan gotta help me kaes!+


oh ya! ur know what!?! my roti prata flew away!!!
ytd there's such big big big wind!!! so big!!! den sudden heavy rain. i was sitting in the canteen enjoying my delicious and crispy sugary roti prata from the grey bowl stall... it was like my first time eating prata this year! and guess what?!!
i was sitting on the right side of the canteen, nearer to the track side... anw... den this sudden big howling wind "PUFFED, HUFFED" and PHEW~~~~ my plate of roti prata flew away!!!!! aw~~~ so sad!!!!!!!! i ate only abt half of it... sobx!!! then i think many pple's food flew away too...coz there were lots of screams and shrieks... hahs...
i think i'm stupid... both ellen and zhi xuan held onto their bowls when the wind comes, only the stupid me... was busy screaming and jumping that i lift my hands away from the plates... and there it goes... prata on the bench... cant eat anymore... contaminated...
how sad... my 50 cent prata!!!


anw... gtg study fer lit test tml! and relative velocity test on fri alr... cant blog anymore!!! i got so much to blog... hehhehheh... excited!! olevel's coming!!!! i wan it to be over soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cant stand the stress man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


joyce is going to do something naughty soon...
very very naughty....
cant blame me... zhi xuan influence me to... lolx....
we'll be naughty tog kaes... hahas...


i'm not telling u... bleah. hahhas


weilin abandon us ar....for....?
erms...
some better reason rite?
ok. kind and gracious xuan and me will forgive u. hahas...
iloveyou||22:04